Birthday

It was a great day today not because that today is my birthday, but because this was the day I talked to you first time through mobile and also expressed my every feelings about you from the beginning to the unknown end. And also you were very empathetic and showed extraordinary patience to here to me-though I stopped frequently over the mid sentence due to uncontrolled outburst may be. It was also a great day because you have given a flame of hope saying that you will think about me, my feelings. And finally it was my birthday. Since that day whenever the day returns the time return I cannot but call you all the years and today also not the exception. But believe me, I really don’t know where was my fault, why don’t you talk to me today, I called you several times. I did not tell anything that day when you left; I was able to manage myself because you helped me by talking frankly being a friend. That day I thought that if we could remain friend forever, I would be able to live, I don’t need anything more. But now today when you don’t talk to me, I am feeling tremendous distress, incapable, coward to myself. I know some time I become crazy, some time I go out of control or become very informal with someone. But being a friend you never tried to understand me. Being a friend you don’t even care my birthday. It is true that that day (12 Feb, 09) you helped a lot, being above the human. If you would not have been so friendly that day, may be I would have to go to the hell by taking frequent narcotic or liquid as people used to do on that kind of situation. I have been escaped from that horrible life by your hand. This is more important than anything else, may be except love. So I have placed you as a goddess in my life-I never expected you are mine in my life but I always dedicated myself as your's! But today especially today, I don’t know why, I don’t find a sequence to express, a rhythm to write or any reason to smile.