After a long journey

This was the great journey of the last almost one year for civil service preparation. I don’t know where the end is. The exam has completed but I don’t know whether it is my only first or my first and last exam for the state civil service exam. Exam was not bad except one but still it is competitive…everyone come here for good exam, I am only one of them. May be I am swimming in a small pond and dreaming to cross the English channel or maybe I am good enough in this competition…let wait for the result which is coming in next few months. It was a great risk of not going outside for corporate job and also not going for MTech. But still I took the decision and work for it for the last one year. Besides I applied for a post in FCI and clear the written and completed document verification as well…hopefully I will be finally selected in it. I did not have anytime problem on decision making but last few years I have taken lot of wrong decisions which has a wrong implication in my life. Still I think it is better to take a decision than suffering from indecisiveness. Yap it needs much analysis before taking any decision from now onwards. I pray my past failures should not make me weaken or slow in decision making rather help me preciously to proper analysis and take the right decision. Another correction needed in my character which is to stable my emotion which is really marked of a strong character. I have been trying to correct a lots of my weakness for the last four-five years but I don’t know what are the implication of those in my life or whether if any! A single thing which I could not able to change for the last five years is the attitude towards the princes! And in fact now this is the most challenging task before me and I am sure I will fail in it…may be my happiness lies in this failure!