Transition Period

There are many transition period in ones’ life. In every regular or irregular interval there comes some sort of transition period where decision making become real important. And the decision has to be taken by the self in whatever tender age he or she may belong at that time. Parents could never help in it.

There was transition period in my age 10 to become good or bad. Good at what? In sports, in study, in business or in farming? If you keep less movement often God show you the proper path. I decided to study well, but simultaneously the idea of business influenced me a lot. As a result I was doing both and not succeeding either. This was the transition period. Sometime later I decided to study well leaving all other ambition and thereafter I could stood first in the class. The trend continue till class X.

After Madhyamik, had to take major decision whether to study with science or not. Almost all objected in good faith and rest left it upon me to take the decision by myself with all the risk on my shoulder. Took the decision and it was not wrong. Thereafter, at XII, had to take another major decision, what to study for career: Engineering, Medical, General Subject, with honours or without honours? Took Engineering. More struggle was waiting. This time I was alone, no support from father, as he was no more. 

In 21/22 of my age, with an idea of becoming a Civil Servant came another Transition Period. Major decision was to be taken was whether to do higher studies or job. Took decision to become a Civil Servant. Worked hard and could partially become a Civil Servant.

Now after a prolonged gap, today, in Age 30, there comes another transition period. This time risk factor is maximum. Life will give the last chance this time. After few years obtaining anything new may not be possible. Age will be a bar. This time major decision to be taken is to study for IAS or not. If not, what are the alternative measure I am going to take to compensate for giving up of IAS preparation? IAS was the single most achievement that if I could get could get the maximum satisfaction in life.

In Police training I learnt one thing that “if doubt don’t”. In life, so far, there was no doubt on anything regarding my capability or capability to achieve. But at this 30 years of age, now, I have doubt regarding the fact that even if I try whether if I could achieve the IAS or not. IAS is the toughest exam in the country. I am with limited resource. Confidence is getting lower. It seems if I try I may get any other alternative Civil Service post but I may not get IAS and without IAS my dream will never come true. It will be an unnecessary investment of time. There are two services I like most: IAS and IPS. In this service I may at least get IPS if God favours. Decision making is pending.